much needed rest from everything..

glad that i was allowed to have 4 consecutive days off work.

2 rest days.. and 2 holiday breaks..

we were given a chance to choose between Christmas and New year.. i chose to have New year as my holiday break.. ^^

so nice kc my couz came home from canada..!! malling.. gmikz.. really fun to be out of office!! ^^

i treat my family to an MMFF movie.. Baler. Medyo kaya naman ng na-receive kong bonus.. hahahaha..

guess where we spent the next day!! ice skating!! hahaha..

had so much fun!! today's 31dec08.. in a little while, new year na!! time to give thanks to all that we've received he previous year.. and look forward to what we have to face this coming 2009. have a great year ahead peepz..

HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

blog more..

uulitin lang po.. for the sake of multiply friends..

ACL operation of tan was successfully done last dec13.. ok na po sya ngayon.. nkakalakad na nga sya ng walang crutches.. mayabang na.. nakakalakad na daw sya. hahaha =p

pinapasabi po ni tantan --thanks sa prayers.

and again.. so much for that..

here are my xmas parties ekek.. hahaha

TK.. last dec 5.. xo happii.. kahit konti lang kami.. na-miss ko kc tlga ang tropa.. since graduating from mapua, bihira ko na sila mka sama.. sayang kc wala yung iba dun.. and ang mahal sa CPK ha!! waharhar

Officemates. see pics sa pier one.. nasa albums ^^.. we really had fun.. masarap yung lechon sisig.. ^^ yung exchange gift namin patawa.. hahaha.. pero the best yung trip na "birthday ni sir noel".. hahaha..

BOW.. party ng blue ocean wireless.. officemates paden pero ksama na namin mga bosses. nagpa cater mga ng italianni's.. namulubi sila pagkatapos. wahahaha.. but if there's something enjoyable that night, it was the GCs.. rustan's 4K worth of gift certs.. sooo nice. ^^ but the announement after that? made us call it a night. depressing.

SMART. it's my first time to attend the company's party.. so much food.. and speacial guests.. ang gwapo ni chris tiu.. hahaha.. parang di pa nkkita si chris in person eh noh? hahaha.. well, ganun tlga. announcement of how many months our bonus is.. yun tlga!! ^^

...family xmas party.. tropa get togethers..so much fun moments..!!

blog.blog.blog

been awhile since the last post.. =)

ff up to the last one -- ok na si tan. ACL operation was done last dec 13. went well, out patient lang xa. umattend pa nga ng fam reunion nila that same night.. sabi ni dadi koy, attend din daw kme? haha.. adik lang. ^^

pinapasabi po ni tantan --thanks daw sa prayers..

hmm.. aun. so much for that. im blogging coz of several reasons.. ang saya kc may P500 worth ako ng starbucks gift certs.. (c/o my officemate, sir mark).. and P4000 worth of Rustan's gift certs..(c/o BOW incentive).. hehe.. and!!! waahhh.. 21 months kame. hehe

aun. next time na yung ibang hapii moments like xmas parties.. Parties tlga. hahaha

c ya!!

see why im sad..??

i've posted 2 days ago in my other blog.. im worried.. even after I've continuously convinced myself not to. well, im not related to them (to him)in anyway, for one thing. in fact.. dont have any right to be worried at all. who am i to them anyway right? pero ganun pa din, nag aalala pa din ako.

..you were there with me when it happened (you know who you guyz are)..

.. you were there when i cant even smile at all

..nag joke ako that time while waiting, pero dko na-feel yung joke ko. =p

..and tama ang comment, that's the first time na hindi ako nagmadaling umuwi after.

..it is just xo xo xo heartbreaking. seeing the closed up face. seeing the pain.. parang affected talaga.. sorry naman. cge na, OA na ako. eh blog ko nman ito eh.. yaan nio akong maging OA. toinkz.. ayun. haii.. hope maging ok na lahat.

worried

iM n0t a worrier.. but now i must admit, nagaalala ako. i know, i dont have any right to be.. i mean, who am i to them anyway?? last night, i even dropped by sa church and prayed. well, that's all i could do nman eh. kasi yun lang ang pwede kong i-contribute.. done in a distance. so sad.. =(

what's happening?

eto lang...

A LOT

haii.. so sleepy na.. night duty.. galing pa ko gimik kanina.. so wala tlga tulog.. i went straight yo work after the spent day in araneta. whoopps,, No, no, no.. not another ball game. i watched the final battle of skechers streetdance.. so sad that mapua dancecom didnt make it this year.. but there's always next year, aight?

...

balik tayo sa basketball..

nanalo ata kanina ang pf.. wasnt able to watch. kxe nasa araneta nga ako. im really sad because of what's been happening lately.. sana lagi na lang panalo para happy ang mga tao.

2nd pala ang magnolia sa standing ng PBL!! next to Harbour.. sana continuous ang wins and good games.. go coach koy!! hehe yung coach ang chini-cheer. ganun tlga. waharhar

...

i was sent in a week long training/seminar.. i was able to meet some of our interfacing personnels.. mabait naman pala sila. xmpre, ako ang youngest sa group.. sabi sken "Ne, paki abot nga yun".. pfftt.. maliit lang ako, pero di nman ako nene. grr

...

i was able to test drive kanina.. more practice!! sana lang, wala akong ma-damage as we go on..

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antagal ng sweldo. wala na kong pera. wahahahaha =)

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twilight saga.. and.......

im finally done reading all four!! i thought it will take me forever to finish all of them. well, i must say.. Twilight is my favorite still. i cant get over the whole "beginning" scenes.. haha.. mas exciting saken yun, kasi mas simple..

breaking dawn is a little complicated, having all the covens come over.. and all the Volturi thing. but c'mon!! Bella's gift is way cool!! hahaha..

_____Change of atmosphere_____

waaa.. im getting sad. it's my current mood.

i cant see myself moving forward. parang im not making progress.. days are passing.. time gets wasted.. i want to do something that will advance my present state..

like grow. mature. learn.

Marlon Stockinger 2008

seeing how he progressed,

from a "not-so-famous" karter.. to a "world-known" F1 aspirant..

from a "Birel-supported" racer to a "BMW scholar" racer..

well, that is incredible!!

not so long ago.. back on my early college days.. i, together with some friends, read and track down this guy's racing schedules, racing results and racing achievements. he haven't won himself a "karter of the year" award (despite all the wishful thinking/s and prayers), but anyone who can see where he is now.. would not really mind, aight?

i was so surprised when i saw how his site turned out. (i like the first one more, though.. no offense to the web designer.. but i liked the first one, having all the speedometer and motor sound effects).. hehe.. :)

i've read on some online article that Marlon Stockinger is the youngest and most accomplished Filipino driver. wow!! who can beat that!!?? hahaha.. i remember how we (my friends) used to joke around the racing results.. having Marlon and the other karters (M.Guidicelli, I.Carapiet, M.Bumgarner,I.Villalon, et al) race each other.. that was some years ago, but nice to look back on. Stefano Marcelo wasn't even popular yet that time. Kart racing will never look the same without Marlon there. But hey, He is growing.. Fast. He deserves some wider track.. better grid.. to expand his skills into.

Can't wait to see more from this guy.

post ...at last

i arrived early.. i usually arrive 30 mins before my actual office shift. so i still have spare time to browse the net or even just to relax myself.. preps for the rest of the office's hoolaboo. why wait weeks before an update? well, still the "everybody's" usual reason... B U S Y. ^__^ and im not yet over the "mind not functioning as i stare in the blank page of my supposedly new post" thing.

remarkable things that passed: (things that i planned to write about, but chose to log nalang out of blogger.com dahil nga ang hirap mag compose.. hehe)

**ATENEO-LA SALLE hype!! - yep, i did plan to watch the first game but failed to secure a ticket. and planned to watched the 2nd game too, but like the first one.. tix were sold out after 3 hours of release.. just to picture it out, i went to araneta the morning after the admu-dlsu 1st game, and i got there at around 7am. tickets were supposed to be released 9am, pero good luck naman sa tao..!! di na sila umuwi from the previous night's game.. andaming newspapers all over araneta's grounds. di ba paikot yun? well, naikot ko na yun, at lahat ng sulok nun may tao at may mga dyaryo. yes, those newspapers were used as higaan. they camped there just to get hold of those precious tickets!! ahahaha.. nakita ko pa lang sila, i tuned my back na and walked away from the place. nkaka-frustrate sila! hahaha.. im not yet "that" crazy.

**ATENEO Won and Chris Tiu became (if possible so) more popular - yes, andami nyang speech sa iba't ibang events and interviews sa iba't ibang programs after that sweep off 2-0 run against their long time rival --DLSU. that was indeed an added blessing to his oh so blessed life, since it's his last year playing for the blue eagles. but come to think of it, you can not have everything in life. there are some things we cant see on cam, or read in articles.. who knows, Chris' life is not that perfect after all.

**BDAY ni DADA and DADI.. well, hindi pa sila nagt-treat.. maghihintay pa din kami.. hahaha

**MIE and Joghz just got together again!! - i asked permission to dada first, if i can be happy for them.. sabi niya, oo nman daw. masaya na daw sila pareho ni mie.. matagal na daw yun. and she's happy nga din daw for mie kc syempre first love nya si joghz. im still hoping that one day, things will smoothen out na for both mie and da.

**Motorola RAZR MAXX V6 - im using a new fone. sana lang di ako ma-hold up ulit. =p bleh.. hahaha.. expensive ang housing ha!! P1800!!! di ko na binilihan.. ang mahal eh.. hahaha

**Twilight - im through reading it.. and what can i say?? Critics have said enough. She's GOOD, more than.. actually. ^__^

**New Moon - Im still reading it.. so wait lang muna..

**Fairest - A novel written by Gail Carson Levine. She's known for her "Ella Enchanted" though. a good read. pero mas excited ako sa "Ever".. another one of her novels. i think "Ever" has a more catching story line.. ^__^ kaya lang wala pang paperback eh..

**Me and Books and Food. - other than work, yan ang pinagkaka-abalahan ko. wala nkong pera kc lahat dyan napupunta. wahehe

**TK's CHRISTMAS PARTY - sana matuloy yun.. lola, uuwi ka? =p

SMARTee

if Mapua have Mapuans.. and if America have Americans.. SMART have SMARTees.. hahaha.. =p

just recently, i participated in the CORE-Caravan.. a two day event held by the company that serves as induction to new regularized employees. ^__^ i enjoyed the first day even though it was only an indoor event. we had discussions about policies and benefits (i wasn't able to understand much though. adik yung speaker.. pero mas adik mga ka-group ko.. andaming "one liners").. and we also played games.. parang break-the-ice.. ^__^ may cute dun, kaso di ko ka-group.. wahahaha..

the second day was even waaayyyy fun!! we get to play and travel around too!! we went to paranaque.. then ate lunch at Max's.. then went to Marikina, and played some more.. good thing that the guys i was grouped with were very active. and they are easy to get along with, too... after the whole marikina activity, we went to quezon city naman. we ate at... guess where?? Max's again!! if there's really something commendable with SMART, it is the way they value and pamper of their employees.. (based on the food.. not just the ordinary)..

we won ourselves a SMART Jacket.. (yung design nun, specifically made lang for the CORE-Caravan.. so pag meron ka nun, ibig sabihin regular ka na.. at nanalo ka pa during your batch induction!!).. ^__^

it is really nice to meet new people.. and make new friends.. and enjoy new experiences..

so early

i got home before the clock stroked 12 last night. and i got up sooo early today. well, i have to attend CORE, the activity being held in makati once a month for regularization of employees. yep, regular npo ako.. yey!! haha =p

as per advice and recommendation by Marivie Duran, im reading the rest of the sequels of Princess Diaries by Meg Cabot. Im in book 5 already.. mavhie?? hanggang ilan ba yun?? ^__^

gotta run, alis na daw kami ni mother..

--cr!s

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hmm.. been 4 days since my last entry. well, not that i didn't try to write one.. it's just that, every time i stare at the blank page.. my mind goes blank too. heehee.. dunno why though.

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..wait.. im distracted by the movie playing in the background.

title: big stan

..haha.. funny!! just.. soooo.. FUNNY!! wahahaha :))

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..so let me continue.. wednesday, we watched night practice.

(hahaha.. whoops, distracted again.. sorry)

been long since the last time i saw the team. i missed james. hehehe.. ^__^ we asked kuya rico if he will watch the admu-dlsu game.. well, ang hirap mag-secure ng ticket. sa office lang ako nag-watch yesterday. nag live streaming ako. and what a game!! eagles won. ^__^

im done reading the 3 princess diaries books. eto lang>> overwhelming!! ang cute nung ending. unexpected plots.. and so sweet turn-outs.

twilight. the novel written by Stephanie Meyer. a very HARD-FOUND-COPY!! two leading bookstores are running out of stocks. nice thing, we're very good at finding resources. i'll start reading it tonight. ^__^ bleh, meann !! hahaha

chris tiu's blog : chris-tiu.blogspot.com
chris tiu's email: ctiu17@....... bleh. yun lang. hahahaha

princess diaries

sort of yes.. but no.

you might be thinking.. the movie? well, the book actually. the one on which the movie was based. written by Meg Cabot. it is totally different on the book than the movie. stuffs like.. on the book, Mia's father have cancer.. but not dead. another matter is about her mom. Mia's mom is dating her Algeb professor... aNd.. and..Her grandmother was the one who leaked the "princess thing" to the press ...those and some other sort of little details. (but mind you, those little things are important for me.. i value details). ^__^

oh i had the urge to buy the book because.. Princess Diaries volume 4 and 1/2 entitled "Project Princess" was on sale two weeks ago at National bookstore.. only a thin compilation.. about 30 pages short. only P65. so i bought it, and got addicted. and also because of one simple fact, michael got a longer exposure on these novels.. in all of it. ^__^ so i bought the first 3 volumes. "The Princess Diaries", "Princess in the Spotlight" and "Princess in love".. plus the 4.5 volume, i got myself 4 books.. darn, im turning bookworm again. hahaha

-- a slEepY dAy

s0oooo sleEpy. i gOt home at around 10pm already last night.. after the game, we rushed for some dinner. atE anNa was reallY exhausted na.. she came straight to phil spOrts after her mOrning duty from mEd citY. actually, ganun din naman ako, after work din. and take note!! we have to work pa today (6am-2pm). im so tired. who's complaining?? ako! ahaha.. =p atleast, sherwin's schedule is not as tight as ours. that's a good thing, since he arrived 30 minutes earlier than i did. he bought us tickets.. malapit lang nman ako sa venue, that's why i left the office late na. fourth quarter of feu vs up, when ate anna arrived. feu won. though UP could have won the game.. sayang nga eh.

worth all effort.. ang ganda ng game ng admu. there was this rebound play.. chris tiu acted funny. maybe the rest of the crowd haven't seen it, or most probably..pretended not to see. hahahaha..

i'll be seeing my friends tonight.. im excited sa draft.. not because of the draftees though. =p bleh!!..

p.s. just want to comment on what happened after the game.. haii.. [dug out scene].. andaming tao. what would you expect? superstar chris tiu ba naman. but what happened was both irritating and depressing. some people really dont understand the concept of the word "LIMITATION". . the crowd literally pushed and threw themselves at the guy.. wala na nga syang nagawa eh..ngiti pa din. picture pa din. though we know na nagmamadali sya.. his parents were there eh. so kami naman, kay charles [kapatid ni chris] na lang nagpa-pic.. ^__^ hehe..

day of thoughts

first: Being a SMART employee is great!!

why?: i get to have P1500 load every month. hahaha.. sorry friends, [it's] not transferable. Salary deduction yun. =p
: i will be a regular employee soon, by then i can enjoy bonuses and VLs.. ^__^

second: Ate anna is so addicted to _***

why's that? : she invited me to watch tom's game.. [well,she'll be paying my tix so i said ok.^_^]
: she asked me if im also available for a quick peek at trinoma on aug31. i told her that we're supposed to be at Market that afternoon for the draft.. and she says we'll go straight to market after trinoma. waaaaa.. im not thinking twice, she's indeed addicted to __**... nhahawa ata ako?? hahahaha =p

third: i texted my Immediate Superior earlier.

why: to confirm my attendance sa CORE Caravan [an activity required for regularization.. you get to have free lunch at Max's and play stuffs with co-employees from other dept].. he said that i should confirm first with sir Lito [my immediate supervisor] regarding the schedule.. and guess what!! sir Lito's hesitant to let me file it [the caravan] for Over Time. haii.. ang hirap mag OT kay sir Lito.. hehehe

fourth: my parents borrowed my last salary.

reaction: i-am-so-broke
:hahahahaha =p

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honestly.. wala akong maisip na maraming sasabihin.. basta na-mimiss ko na kayo. yun lang.

inaantok nako.. pero kelangan ko mag duty.. so mags-senti na lang muna ako.. pwede ba yun? hehe

ewan ko.. pero kung pwede ko lang ibalik yung dati.. i will still do the things that i have done.. go places with you and experience that part of my life all over again. kung meron man akong gustong baguhin.. that would be the wasted moments.. the weakened bond.. the dangling friendship..

when i look back in my life.. given that we're only at our early twenties.. it's nice to remember so many things and nice to know that I have learned so much. even though most of my memories of our plight are happenings and enjoyments.. i can say that most of my life's toughest lessons were also spent with you guys. i have learned what "amats" means.. that's for one. haha but really, i am missing those moments.. time spent cracking jokes.. laughing on each one.. playing.. singing.. and even those rare moments that we spent doing nothing.

bare with me on this..

but really,

i miss you peepz..

ripley's hosted by chris tiu..

..ate anna mentioned it one time.. "hindi bagay kay chris mag tagalog".. the topic that time was the new show of GMA7.. ripley's believe it or not hosted by chris tiu. i got intrigued since i haven't seen it yet..

well..today is the second airing of the show and i am here at the office.. night duty. i streamed GMA through net.. and guess what! i was able to watch it. here's a cut of the show..


apologies for the background noise.. my colleagues were playing NBA live.. hehehe.. and the vid was shot using a cam phone.. sa laptop lang ako watch.. xenxa.. =p

alone.. but not lonely

im quite enjoying my duty.. im the only one here at the room.. this is actually the second day. Lara's not here.. she's supposed to be my partner on this shift but she's on leave. im ok, so it's ok. haha.. in between monitoring routines, im watching 'House'.. yep, Dr. House... the cynical doctor but brilliant with his profession. i'd rather have a cynic doctor but good.. than a nice one and bad on what he does. im learning stuffs on the series.. so i guess watching a sick doctor wouldn't be so bad an idea.. haha..

i ordered a big mac for lunch.. with apple pie for dessert.. ^__^ yumm.. eeehh.. im starved. so you cant actually blame me for eating so much. ^__^ hahahaha

i am still weighing wether i'd watch the game at araneta today.. hhMMmm.. i'll think about it some more..

verge of starts.. and ends..

so sad that this coming Philippine cup, two of the PBA vets are retiring. kuya rey and noy are now giving up their positions in the team. well, that's basketball for you.. some will have to go and new ones will fill the vacant spaces.

i really enjoyed yesterday's game. ADMU and UE. both are great teams. i have always enjoyed watching these two talented teams. ever growing.. ever improving..

way back in highschool.. back when LA was still a rookie.. i have always believed on the team's winning prowess. but when james yap and paul artadi happened, i have split my attention.. and started noticing this other team... UE. and now.. after so many years, i still stand on my belief that.. UE trains better players among other given teams. though.... as always, when it comes down to just these two, ateneo will still be my bet. =p dont ask! ahahaha

and now.. after several years have passed, i still watch these teams once in a while.. and find pleasure on seeing them win. James, Paul, LA, JC, Rico, et al.. are now playing pro. and the two teams already secured themselves a new generation of superb players.. Tiu and Reyes among eagles, Arellano and Martinez among warriors... who will be the next generation's "hard court heartthrobs"?? well, that will have to wait.. hahaha

22nd

prAk would start on the 22nd.. haii.. i have an early schedule at work, so i wont make it. i can ofcourse drop by for a while.. hhMmm.. that's an idea. ^_^ i would try to go there during break.

tomorrow's my rest day. i really am gonna take my due rest. ^__^ im tired.

i really missed Makati

been long since the last time i've been to makati. oh well, not that long.. but i got used to Makati environment back in college. just imagine more than 3 years of my life roaming around the area.. doing stuffs that are either academe related or just pure fun.. i really missed the city.

today, i got a little time off work.. i picked up my service sim at our main office.. then went to glorietta after. glo looked the same since the last i saw it.. and G2 is still under construction.. mai (tropa back in college) joined me for dinner.. we ate at chicken bacolod G1.. the crab fat rice taste good.. well.. i regret ordering it, hours after dinner. high in cholesterol. especially when we've ordered bangus belly and sizzling beef sisig along with it. these are stuffs we have definitely enjoyed having, but risked our health in return. i am a big food fan. but why would i pay for something expensive and unhealthy? impractical huh?? hahaha.. so.. that's it. would you ask me if i would never eat the above mentioned food ever again? well the answer is simple.. i'll eat those again, given a chance to.. but wont eat them altogether again.. hehehe =p

value your life

life is not something permanent.. it could be gone in an instant.

late last night, i've received an sms from a friend back in highschool.. i've maintained my communication with them and glad that we could catch up with each other every once in a while.. though at busy times, i often refuse on meetings and get together/s. so.. last night.. i was still at in the office preparing on going home, when i received the message. i didnt reply on it since im in a hurry to ride a cab. until i went to bed.. slept.. and forgot all about it. early this morning, like every morning.. first thing i reach for when i wake up is my phone.. see what time is it.. and check if there are messages. then i saw that SMS.. read what it says.. "cris, have you heard about Bardos? schoolmate natin in highschool?" i got curious and replied.. why, what's with him? thinking that maybe it was another case of "gf's pregnant.. got married.." thing. but the reply i received says he died.. ulcer. waaahh.. i was shocked. the reply i sent to my highschool friend is the one i would like to share with you....


the incident just proves one thing.. it doesnt mean we're young, we're not prone to illness anymore.

got me thinking.. do we really value our lives?? have we taken care of it? are we taking care of it?

a thursday of realizations..

hMmm.. i dont like him. i dont feel like liking him. Please dont make me explain why, i cant. i know, it's insane not to like this guy. cmon, who says he's close to perfect?? i certainly agree. dont get me wrong.. i still see this guy as dashing and as talented as ever.. it's just that, i dont have good vibes. i believed and still believe the things that i heard about him.. that he's grounded and nice and approachable and all the things related. but when i saw him, right there, right in front of me.. i felt intimidated. i felt out of place. even though he's not doing anything to make me feel that way. but that is what i felt. it's close to instinct. how am i supposed to know..?? well, i should not try to know anymore..

simply put, i dont and cant like him anymore.

a nice game.. and an upcoming one

hMm.. i'll be watching tOmorrow's game. iM excited. ^__^ iM nOt a collEge bAll fan. last tiMe i'vE followed a wholE sEason was wAy bAck 2004. it's nicE tO thiNk thAt i'll bE wAtchiNg a livE gAMe agAin of cOllEgE tEams.

hMmm.. antAgal kC nG PBA.. ^__^

gone in just a short span of time

waaaa.. it was just right there. but after sometime (estimate:less than 48 hours), it's not there anymore.. hmm.. funny how fast it was taken from me. i've worked hard. i've earned it. yet......

what am i talking about?? ..ah, nothing. just.. just.. MONEY. =(

hehehe.. im not THAT depressed. just want to stress out that im such a spender. and im not happy about it. just cant believe i've bought a dvd player. and a flat screen. when i've wanted to save... haii.. could do nothing but sigh in frustration.. hahaha.. til next blog entry..

sawa factor

losing interest.. hMm.. sEarchiNg abOut a pArticulAr tOpiC, aNd fiNding the sAme rEsUlts ovEr aNd ovEr, wOuld rEallY wEar oFf yOur cUriOusity. thOugh i dOnt wAnNa giVe it Up yEt. whO kNows, sEeiNg this sUbjEct face to face..^__^

i miss watching basketball games.. i mean, watching it live. just yesterday, i glanced upon a game between mapua and baste. SSC won.. MIT lost,just another case of "selfish play". i kept on telling myself while watching "bakit nyo pinasa kay __, naman!!" or "maraming kakampi dba? (sarcastic)" hMp. bUt thE #4 gUy's dElivEriNg gOod. sAna wAg tUmulAd kAy ___. hahahaha

that's NCAA. ask me about U-AP? last UAAP game i've seen?? (this was on tV, cOz iM rEEeeaaaaLLy bUsy, hahahaha) ADMU vs UST game. Ateneo won. i've rEalized, jAi's reAlly gOod aNd mAtuRe alrEadY. hE'll bE a niCe additiOn to PBA sOmedAy (sOon). ^__^ heard he got married?? hahaha.. why am i talking about jai reyes? kC aNdAmi nG 2NgkOl kY chris tiU.. pAra mAibA nmAn.

so. PBA nmAn. hAii, lA nkO iNsidEr nEws. thE lAst i hEard, JJ's nOt well?? tOtOo bA yUn? ewan. giN's nOt mY fAvE aNyway. i dUnnO hOw thEy arE scOriNg iN thE fiNals. hOpe thEy'll hAvE a gOod mAtch. hMm.. whAt else..??.. kUya rEy (evAngelista) is rEtiriNg. yUp. thAt's a cOnfirmEd nOte. sO sAd, cOz hE's prOvidiNg alOt of cOntribUtioNs on cOurt.. bUt if thAt wOuld mAkE hiM hAppY, whO am i tO intErfEre, aiGht?

a certified basketball observer. yea. though i dont play the game (shooting lang ang alam/kaya kong i-execute na play. take note: not beyond the free throw line =p), i still understand the concept of the sport. that doesnt give me any right to question a player's court decision, but iM still entitled of mY own opinion aYt? ^__^ so i am quoting : ALL COMMENTS WRITTEN ON THIS BLOG IS JUST MY SOLE OPINION. walang kontra. hahaha. beh =p

got another thought

i want someone smart. sports minded. musically inclined. business person. good looking would be a plus.. rich?? hhmm that can be too..And whoa!! there he is.. like trying to google these standards and the only search result is his name!! hahaha..

dreamin.. dreamin.. dreamin..

dont you worry.. this girl's gonna wake up in a little while.. hahahaha.. will realize soon that the guy she's wondering about wont even bother to throw her a second look.. not even a first look for that matter.

hhhmmm.. another part of my being is trying to voice out something.. let's hear her out:
i am writing about this today, and who knows.. in the near future, these dreams wont be dreams anymore..??

aawww.. you part of me should shut up now..

waaa.. turning crazy already.. ahaha.. gotta end this now. til next post. ^__^

message across

there'd been messages being whispered to each of us everyday. some, we understand on an instant.. some, we didn't catch.. some, we just refuse to hear.

there are even messages that we formulate ourselves.. we tell ourselves.. we realize.. we act upon.

lately, she's spending so much time on various chores.. tasks.. responsibilities.. she forgot to listen on those messages. took forgranted the messages she owed to herself. doesn't have time, she says. but tomorrow, while walking on a busy street, she will stop. she will realize. and she will act upon it. that's for sure.

gotta move forward..

it will only take a step.. for me to start this journey. only a step, and i would pull it through. i know i can. ^__^ a little faith. a little prayer. a little courage. that's all i need.

spEcial nOnetheless..

even though it ended quite sadly.. i would still remember this day as one of the special events in my life.. it was an off night. no doubt. for the whole team. but most especially for him. i am frustrated, and sad.. but what i heard on my way home made me feel, if still possible, sadder.. i disagree with what i heard, but hey.. i was there and not there, at the same time.. i really cant testify with every little thing that happened. but if i would trust my own judgement,, i would have to disagree. wala na. confused na ang nagbabasa nito.. wahehe.. brush it off. yaan nlang. haii..

..but cant help it.

smiles still slip through me whenever i looked back on what happened that day. i can remember more of that, than the game itself.. haha..

nOt mUch rEactiOns..

nOt thAt i dOnt wAnt tO rEact.. i jUst didNt givE mYsElf a chAncE to. i wAnt tO act cAlm abt it.. bUt the hEck with it, i rEally wAnt t0 shOut aNd jUmp bEcause of it.. tOinkz. haha.. whAtevEr. tOo lAte fOr thAt nOw.. hahahaha.. ^__^

nOte: tAlkiN abt thE evEnt lAst 052708

after today..

i have always regarded my life as a gift given by God. if he wants to take it back, i thought i'd be ready for it. but today, i had an encounter with a hold-upper. and i feared for my life.. a thought passed by my mind.. "if He is really looking over me, why did that happened?".. then without another second, i brush the thought aside.. because i believe that God has a reason for everything. and the event earlier is something that's meant to happen. ^__^ yaan na ang cellphone. cellphone lang yun. ano daw?! harharhar ^_^

)-!&

051308--pacify myself

it was my first time to watch prak @san juan arena.. i have been there couple of times to watch games.. but not practices though. so i literally went looking around the place when i arrived with ate jhackie.. it seems that the place is kinda too spacious for them. but i guess we dont have much choice.. ^__^ the big deal on this specific day..?? i finally got the chance to ride n3y's auto.. and take note.. with PJ behind the wheels!! leaves me freakin' =p wahaha.. im currently at work, di mka move on. hehe.. ^__^

my never ending dream

i dreamt of that one thing.. not so long ago.
it came after sometime..
i thought that would be enough,
i thought i would soon wake up.
but then, i continued dreaming.
even at the lowest times of my slumber,
i chose not to let go.. not to return..
not to face reality..
i wanted to..
..keep my never ending dream.

*[[ just sad... ]]*

im writing. coz i feel so sad. be left hoping, felt so bad. haii.. i dunno. i was kinda elated the past weeks. but maybe the sayings are true.. dont be too happy, coz things may turn 360. heights sure are scary.. falling hurts. tsk.. >_< yea i am disappointed, not coz i expected much. but becoz, i expected little, and yet.. even that wasn't granted. i cant help it. how i wish, after i shook my head.. i could also shook my heart.. maybe i could lighten myself up. just maybe. not everything happens the way we want it. most often than not, it goes the other way. maybe God knows a better path. guess the only thing i could do is pray, pray that the path chosen for me would make me happier.. nth times the happiness i felt when i was elated.. when i was up there.. with him

someone i could not love..

"someone i could not love.." --mcld

standing in a distance,
you were quietly making your mark..
i secretly took a glance,
and you landed straight to my heart..

why hath God made me see,
things i could not have..
why hath God sent you to me,
when you're someone i could not love..

i was okay before you came..
and now im not the same..
it's just that, i couldn't love you..
and it brings me so much pain..

after 040208 blog

waa.. yep.. he gave me a patronA tix last 033108. he showed sincerity last 040108 morning.. 040208 after game?? waa.. in front of other peepz, he told me "may work ka pa ah".. like saying pumasok ka na.. hahaha.. he knows my sked yep. last 040708 we were again in sk.. bdey ni rg eh.. he was again informed that i shcnge my shift sked,, 2pm-10pm. he asked "pano?" as if asking.. may game this wed, how can i watch.? last night 040908.. the team won!! waaa... i watched with my couzins and sis.. after game,, xempre pa-pic. graze is an angel,, she brought her cam. n3y was ofcourse bashed by crowd.. but he really stopped for a pic shot when i asked him for one with my sis and couzins.. waaaa.. really touched. kuya al was more surprised when he personally witnessed how n3y asked me if i dont have work.. waaahh.. infront of those crowd.?? kala ko tlga di nia ako kausapin xe xmpre andmi tao.. ang babaw ko noh? pero sobrang happee tlga. kausapin nia lang ako, i acknowledge nia lang na kilala nia ako.. ang saya2 ko na. just little things.. just remmbering my sked is already a big deal!! huhu.. kaiyak sa tuwa. he would always be the guy i've supported since my highschool.. hindi pden xa nagbbago. who would have thought aight? dati mkta ko lang sa tv, parang kuntento na ang buhai ko. ngayon?? i got a chance pa to talk to him.. waaa tlga

mY blog last 1:54am --040208--

it is late.^_^ but im trying to stay up. have to keep monitoring every hour. not much of a work.. light, but takes much time. im really really sleepy.. i dropped by in sk last monday and yesterday morning.. kea kulang tulog ko. but that sleep couldn't be as satisfying as to what happened that two consecutive sleepless days. monday, i went there simply because i wanted to join ate anna.. but she wasnt able to make it.. she spent her morning pa xe sa med city.. during practice, i was sitting in my usual spot.. sa harap/tabi ng bag ni james.. not that im intentionally doing it, nagkakataon lang talaga. pag dating ko, kinausap ako nila leanard at kuya alex.. after a while i saw him approaching my direction.. eye contact.. the greeting.. the nod.. the smile.. everything just went slow motion. it may sound exaggerated, but that's the nearest description i could make of what i felt and what i actually experienced. then he reached for his towel.. his drink (cant remember if water or gatorade.. panu nawindang na).. then he asked, to my surprise (.. you see, we never really had conversation before..), if i dont have classes.. i informed him that im already working.. he followed-up his first inquiry with how old am i.. again that's surprising.. for me atleast, i almost asked if we're having that exchange for real! haha.. i told him im 20. i thought that's it.. but hey.. hey.. surprised again.. he asked if i dont have work.. xmpre i again replied (kahit medyo monotone ako.. cant believe eh), told him im having my nightshift sked this week.. he needed to participate sa warm up kea he lined up along with the others.. but he kept his distance not so far from me..... just so he could continue the conversation. he commented "edi wala ka pang tulog nian".. i just affirmed that. i was more than shocked and amused when he offered the info to the other peepz around us.. kay rob, kay coach koy, kay alex.. amp. naka segue pko kay coach koy.. sabi kasi ni james kung sanayan lang daw ba yung ganun.. sbi ko ganun tlga kahit nung college.. kahit itanong nia pa kay coach koy.. kasi si jon sa mapua nagaaral.. hahahahaha.. basta maisingit nlang si jon eh noh?? iniwan na si james sa ere kasi i asked coach koy na if when magp-pbl si jon.. he told me after the conference pag may kumuha.. ^__^ asking what happened to james?? wala. andun pa din sya.. i was amused more than surprised that time, when he still looked at me and said.. "alam ko na, siguro kaya yun ang kinuha mong sked para makanood ka ng game? noh?" (noh with matching accent and nod.. waaa!! i can practically replay everything on my head!!).. i again affirmed that, and told him na syempre 1st game.. sbe nia.. kung 1st game daw ba sila.. sbe ko hindi, i mean 1st game ng confi..@__@ after practice.. hindi na ako amazed. inlove nko!! wahahahaha.. ye, ye, he's taken.. but that fact wont refrain me from loving him more.. ("more" kasi matagal ko n nman xang love dba?). can you believe it, he gave me a game ticket for wed's game!! waaaa!!! &_& xmpre sobrang thank you ako.. that day.. akala ko tlga the ticket's an upperA seat.. pero just yesterday, i checked it (tingnan ko sana kung magkano upperA tix)... and only then that i noticed, seeing the P400 price, patronA !!! wAaaa.. really, i am so touched.

not so long ago, makita ko lang xa.. even only on tv or an advertisement.. sobrang saya ko na.. and now?? wow! that indeed is an achievement.

kanina(yesterday actually..sadyang ala lang ako 2log).. sobrang touched ako.. he showed concern.. matulog na daw ako. magpahinga na.. waaahh.. ilang beses pa nia pinaulit-ulit.. huhuuhu.. nakakaiyak sa pagkatouch.

endOrsEd tO thE sitE

i was endorsed by sir brian to the dept.. to sir rodel in specific.. under the supervision of sir lito. first day went well, sana mg2loi lng. i met the rest of the team.. hope to get along well with all of them. i really thank GOD for all the blessings.

--i had confession together with my family.. i went straight to church after office. (dpA ako sAnay nA sabihing.. galing ako sa "office".. hehe)

dOwn with rEcent stUffs

im still in the process of furnishing the vlsl db.. huhu.. im getting irritated with the side comments from people who doesn't even know a single thing about it. developing a certain prog cannot be done overnight. you need to think and visualize it.. hindi yung tira ka lang ng tira..

wwAaa.. nAgtxt si ate leah.. watch dw prak tom. huhu.. pano yun, magreport ako sa pasig tom eh.. huhuhu.. ka-sad naman.. =( sana pag nagkaron ako ng shift na pwede ako mag watch, sana available pa si ate leah..

tirEd,,bUt thAnkful

thAnk God i wAs ablE tO pUll it thrOugh todAy.^__^ hOpE He will continue to guidE mE all thrOughout mY stAy. (-_-) slEepY modE** (-_-)

prAyiN'

........sAna evErythiNg will bE sEttlEd tOm.. sAna.. sAna.. mAy God hElp mE thrOugh this.. i nEed this jOb.. mAy God hElp mE.. pls.. pls..

irritated ~__~

im not mad or anything.. but im badly affected. im easily irritated with "guilt tactics".. pressing unto someone, just so he would comply. it's like forcing your way into that person. it isnt a good habit. instead of feeling guilty, i am more convinced of not changing my stand. so using "guilt tactics" on me would just backfire.. so better not use it.

im really irritated ~__~

myHAPPY031408

first of all.. i would like to greet coach pat a happy birthday (yesterday..^__^)

it's really funny.. how he gave his trainings to the players(..or played with them?? haha..jkE**) parang pinagt3pan nia kc.. ang kulit nung mga drills nia..^_^ haha.. may tumatalon, tapos in the air ip-pass yung bola.. so kelangan, mag tagal ka ng mga 2 secs sa ere.. haha.. ang cute 2malon ni chico..wahaha..^_^ yung iba panget tumalon, sabi ni kid "gandahan nio!!" wahahahaahahaha... so funny!! laughing throughout talaga.. tapos may mga re-enactment ng "gym" drills.. hehe.. may mga "turn right if i point right, turn left if i point left" with matching whistle pa.. ang cute nila, may nagr-right turn kahit left yung hand signal..!! hahaha... but the best part of it?? the after practice..^_____^ chat with gov, mang tom, pj and coach pat (antagal kasi ni kid & rg sa dugout, naglock pa ng pinto..kea di maka bihis si coach pat, and w8 pa ni pj si kid para sabay uuwi).. andami mga kalokohan ni barrios.. amp! talikuran ba si gov after i-award yung trophy nung finals???!!! sabi nga nila, san ka nakakita ng commish na hindi na nga kinamayan yung losing team, niyakap pa yung winning team???? "biased??" aammm... tinalikuran pa si gov?? naman oh! mission accomplish talaga sila! hehehe.. commish, bulong mo nga saken.. sekreto lang nten..ano ba talaga....... ano ba talaga pinakain sayo sa shang at nagkakaganyan ka?? wahahaha.. love it!^_^ si pj, sabi ni gov totoo pala na gusto ipa-trade si larry 4 pj.. pero di pumayag ang team.. larry for pj?? ayaw daw.***love pj, wag ganun..hehe*** sabi ni kuya tom.. madami daw girls.. sabi naman ni coach pat, kay pj madami nagkakagusto.. pero si pj sa isa lang. naks! loyal?? hehehe..^_^ sabi naman ni gov, oo daw.. mabait daw si pj.^_^ madami pa actually nangyari.. kumain kami ng cake (na dinala namen for gov..hehe).. ang cute kumain ni pj ng cake +_+.... si coach koy nga daw paalis na, bumalik ulit nung nakita yung cake.. hehe.. si omanzie, ambait.. xa nagpakuha ng plate namin. eh ang tagal nung kumuha.. sabi nia "tagal naman, kung nakakakilos lang ako.. ako ang kukuha eh.." (or something in that effect)..injured kasi xa.. may cast yung left leg.. nung pauwi na silang lahat.. si RG uuwi na din.. nagbbye xa.. ang gwapo ni coach rg!!! wwaaaaa!! hehe.. well, agree ako sa sbi ni ate anna.. picture doesn't give RG's look justice. ang gwapo nia, pero di masyado ma emphasize sa pic..wwaaaa talaga!! hehe.. and until.... si coach pat nlng and kuya jun natira.. nagpaalam kami kay coach pat b4 i-lock yung dugout na pasilip kami ni ate anna..^_^ pumayag naman.. bait..^_^ and may nakita kami dun na nagustuhan nmen.. nagulat kme nung inabot ni coach pat and cnabing amin nlng.. wwaaaaa... love coach pat na tlaga.. hehe..^__^ plus! sinabay nia kami hanggang megamall! nice dba? last hirit pa! taga north fairview pala siya, and taga bulacan nman si kuya jun!! hehe.. anlapit smen..^__^ sbi ko nga dn, andun lang malapit bahai ko.. nice tlga!^__^

nagpunta kme med city.. and sa may cainta banda.. tpos 2muloi nko sa dinner out..*__* saya!!

looking forward

yEp.. looking forward.. and never regret anything at times you're looking back.

i had this nice dream this morning. it's like GOD's saying.. "nagttrabaho tayo.. gusto natin kumita ng pera.. kasi iniisip natin na giginhawa tayo.. yung mga kulang sa buhay natin, mapupunan na. pero sana pag kinailangan ka NIYA wag kang tumanggi.. sana available ka lang palagi" (not exactly the same words, but that's basically what he relayed to me..) remembering that when i woke up, i smiled and said.. GOD is good.. and he is guiding me.

i went back to SmartTower kanina.. i read the contract already.. with God's help.. sana makapirma na ako ng contract by monday.^__^

tom, i plan to see him again.. haii.. di na talaga nagsawa noh?? hahaha.. praying that everything will go just fine..^__^

praying hard,,

Thank God..^__^ i was able to talked with ms.joan yesterday.. i submitted to her most of my requirements.. and she asked me to submit the rest of those on thurday. early this morning i was able to get my TIN.. finally! yep! and hopefully, again with God's help.. maka sign na ako ng contract within the end of this week.. crossing my fingers.. May God help me through..

ugh! some pips from this certain forum sent invites in my frndstr acct.. i made that acct private, because i want my network to be composed only of friends or at least acquaintances that i have personally met.. =( and i simply dont want to explain myself to them.. ugh really!!

waa.. so troubled

actually, i'm a little down right now.. caused of random things..

the horrible interview last week.. and the delay of my requirements' completion.. really, im scared that it'll affect my application. huhu.. with God's help.. i hope i can still be accepted. i need this job, asap..=(

hope things will lighten up for me this coming week (sigh mode**)

comment about the last american idol eliminations.. i love love love danny noriega.. he's transparent.. he doesn't pretend whatsoever.. sad that he has to go. ramiele was shown crying.. so so sad.. =( (if there's a good thing about it.. ramiele's staying..)

("need the job.. need the job.." mode**) ~__~

mY tEam 4life

what am i thinkin?? im so sad seeing pj so down.. want to be right there and hug him.. (as if magagawa ko naman yun kung andun nga ako eh noh?? hahaha) well, we are not that close for me to hug him or any of that sorts.. well atleast he knows im existing ayt? ^__^ i'll repost here the msg i posted in a forum:

PUREFOODS.. ang team na napamahal na sa akin. natatandaan ko pa nung simula pa lang akong fan.. 4pm ang tapos ng klase ko.. 4:30 start ng game.. talagang nagmamadali pa ako makauwi (mkati-qc).. kasi kahit last quarter lang maabutan, sobrang saya ko na. pag walang game para akong ta**ang nam-miss sila. sa lagay na yun, di ko naman sila personal na kilala..(not until later na lang) di naman nila alam na nage-exist ako(not until later na lang din).. tapos pag naabutan ko yung game.. talo pa! hehe.. but my point here is.. i became a fan of pf during those hard times, na di talaga sila umaabot kahit sa semis. for me, it doesn't really matter if they lose.. winning a certain game is just an added treat. winning a semis ticket is just an added bonus.. and winning a champ title is just an added blessing. makita ko lang silang naglalaro ng sama-sama.. giving their best.. never giving up.. tapping each other's back.. hugging each other after a superb shot.. helping each other stand.. sobrang nagpapasalamat na ako.. because THAT alone gives me inspiration.. making me smile and say, "wala na ng ibang team ang may ganyang samahan..sila lang"

dont like pj

i dont like you.. your smile that makes me stop and stare.
i really dont like you.. not your eyes that makes me wonder what you're thinkin..
i just dont like you, not your ways that simply impresses me..
i dont dont dont like you.. and the way i am slowly.. slowly.. making a second look..

a happy day.. then im down..

yesterday.. i was soooo happy.. i finally saw my most missed people!! (pj,jmes,chco,kuyarey..etc) may pic pa with some of them..i brought tin with me..

kagulat kasi close door practice.. di allowed na may manood na iba.. pero pinapasok kami.. when others attempt to enter the gym, nilalapitan ni kuya alex.. pinapakiusapan na sa labas na lang mag antay.. strict practice kasi ang implemented... ambait samen ng team.. huhu.. very much appreciated..^__^

knowing my team.. seeing how nice they are.. they deserve to be where they are now.. one of the best.

kuyarey was in a light mood that time.. sabi nia "pano? ganito?" (asking about how to pose sa cam.. then he raised a two handed peace sign.. hahahaha)

that was my happy day.. now im down because.. we are 1st runner up of slr.. actually, i wasn't really down since i saw them played their all.. sabi ko naman noon.. i dont need them to win.. i need them to play their best, and that alone would be enough for me. pero when i saw pj almost in tears.. parang gusto ko na din umiyak.. i want to be there.. huhu.. kaso di pede..;9

wAaahhh sbe ko pa nman.. "pinagpapalit ko na si jmes!!"????? haha.. declaration i2..!! di na ako solid jmes?? hhMm.. 22o ba un?? hehe.. pagicpan ko muna.. bka nabbigla lang ako.. hehe..

i'll just post some of the pics from ysterday..... sa cork board.. check it out pag may time keo.. (kUng mer0n man nagbabasa nito.. haha)

follow up-- how could someone?

how could someone fall in love with a name??

how could i fall in love with a dream..??
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She was there. Standing in front of an aisle.. Only then that she noticed a little girl just next to her, wearing a cute gown. She asked the little girl… “do I have a good looking groom?”…the girl nodded. Then she stopped. Oh my.. she said to herself. This is her wedding. Who’s gonna be her husband? She looked for the man waiting at the altar. But he… he doesn’t have a face.

“Do I know you? Have I seen you somewhere?” she asked the man sitting next to her.

The guy smiled and said, “Is that a pick-up line?”

---

and just now i thought..

how could someone fall in love with a voice?

what is the common factor? they fell in love with someone they haven't personally met. someone who's not even aware of their existence.

hhmm.. what happened after they met? after that first encounter?

all deserved win

they won their ticket to the finals!! yep..jmes did a good job of penetrating rb's defense. kUya piNg did a good job on impressing his dad-in-law.^_^ but hands down to rb's headcoach.. magaling talaga xa. dont get me wrong though, i still dont like him.. just giving credit when credit is due. hhMmm.. gO tEam.. kAya niO yN. i miss wAtching practice and live games..^_^ win.bck.d.cr0wn!!

i read this line in a novel today.."how could someone fall in love with a name??".. my predicament?? how could i fall in love with a dream..??--reminds me of that thing again. (sigh mode**)

011008..sunday..@hOme

iM sittiNg hEre agAin. dOnt hAve a lifE thEse pAst days excEpt PC.PC.and PC.

this morning i again attended sunday mass after missing it twice already.. i've come up with one conclusion.. i dont like richard anymore.^_^ that's good aight? after mass, mga 12pm dumating cla raquel d2 sa house. and i realized another thing, i still have feelings for m*.k*, though subsided na xa.=p i felt warm inside seeing him on my bed. (nAkz!** hehe).. pero i dont feel envious when see them together, him and .*zA... enough of that. hehe

later tonight, game7 na ng semis. hope pf wins. sana sana. para may bora kme kay kuya ping (jOkE!!).. but ofcourse, mas gusto nmen na manalo. . kc alam nmen na they deserve it... with all that seen hard work! it's just sad that cant be at the venue.. i still have to stay at home eh. i will pray for the team... sana sana.. with God's help!! crossing our fingers.

thE 1st EntRy..^_^

it's late.. 12:33am. why am i still up?? well there are some random reasons.. maybe coz im urged to write my first blog entry.. or maybe coz im bothered with thoughts..

hey, im almost done with this asian drama series im streaming since yesterday.. 1st.shop.of.coffee.prince. im addicted to streaming these past months.. haha, guess it's caused by lack of work. yep, isa akong dakilang tambai. wahehe.. how can i still laugh abt it?? that's the least thing i could do. while watching the series, i get to learn that someone should work hard to achieve whatever she wants to. no superwoman with super powers.. just a superwoman with super effort, doing the best she could..giving her all. another realization that hit me, you dont give reasons why you love the person you love..you just do. you might have your ideals..but when you love someone, the heck with the ideals..!! these dramas bring forth lessons.. some obvious things in life that others might have not noticed or just chose to ignore. did i fall inlove before? no.. because if i already did, then i wont be single now..ayt? before, i used to ask.. why there's noone i could seriously love? someone i could drag into a relationship with..? i asked that, days in highschool..when everyone's experimenting with feelings.. days in college too, when everyone's planning their future already.. days when i come across friends showing off their babies and their husbands. why am i alone? until i prayed that one night.. sabi ko, God.. i have again completed the 9morning masses (simbang.gabi). before i would ask for my grades to be ok, my family's safety, last nlang yung lovelife. pero evry december, i would ask for that someone.. bakit hanggang ngayon wala pa?-- then suddenly i realized, like God answered or something.. a memory when i was still a child. i asked God if He could make my first love the one for me.. i would meet him maybe when im 22.. and marry after 3 years (by then im 25).. have kids after 2years (age 27).. see i had it all planned before, so why am i complaining now?? im just 20years old. haha... see, i told you.. it's like God talked. ^___^ sana lang talaga, that someone truly exist and come one day (maybe when i turned 22^_^) to live out my prayers.